Empty..
I feel empty now.. hardly ever happy anymore.. Idk what it is. I don’t feel the same for you either.. I miss you when we aren’t together, but near you… I get mad, angry, and I just wanna leave. It started after that first break. I was starting to heal, you were fixing my heart up again. But you asked for that one break and I became broken and scared again. I started to second guess or relationship.. I am now broke again, hurt. I know my depression has a lot to do with our problems. I get sad or mad for no reason, you can’t always cheer me up. It messing with the way I feel, thinking, and act. I know all our problems are because of me. You say that we are taking this break until im ready, but im afraid if I will be ready. I don’t know if ill get better, if ill change, or if the therapist or medicines will work. I don’t wanna hurt you, I hate that I watch myself hurt you. Its just better off this way right now. I don’t know exactly what I want right now. I need this time to find myself, fix me. I just feels its best, for now at least. Gahh, I really don’t know what to do, I’m confused. That’s all that I know. :/
